If He’s Your King, He Needs to Act Like it

There have been a couple of times where a piece of advice has stopped me dead in my tracks and redirected me towards a greater path. I wanted to share something I was told that has since effected the way that I see budding romantic relationships.

I was standing in the kitchen and my head was spinning. At the time I was sort of maybe “talking” to this guy who took me out on dates that were exciting to say the least. We had unbelievable chemistry and the way we got along when we were together was something that had me very excited about things to come… but something wasn’t right. When we weren’t together, he would disappear for days or weeks at a time- never reaching out or making any kind of effort to let me know of his feelings… I would start to move on and heal and then, out of the blue, like he had some kind of tracking device on my heart, there he was to make me fall for it all over again.

During the times without reassurance, I would grow insecure and restless. My mind would jump to every conclusion about what could possibly be wrong with me- I over-analyzed each little detail and slowly felt myself becoming absorbed by the idea of a relationship with this guy. My emotions were too tied up. I was sacrificing my peace of mind because of my feelings for this person.

During one such time of self doubt, my mom looked over at me from the counter where she was doing the dishes and with unbelievable clarity in her eyes she said “If he’s your king, he needs to act like it.” And she left it there. I didn’t tell her what I was going through and yet, like the Holy Spirit inspired woman she is, she knew just what to say. Immediately I felt clear headed and less emotionally attached to this specific person.

The relationships we choose to put importance on have a huge impact on our path. If we prioritize someone who is not on our level of commitment, we are choosing a path of hurt.

Do not sacrifice your ambition and peace of mind for someone who is not on your level. Something especially tough about dating in your 20’s is that there is typically a huge maturity and commitment gap between people. Some are ready for the next phase of life, some are still getting settled in who they are, and others are stuck on an ex or on playing the whole 20’s dating scene of noncommittal hookups.

The best advice I can give based on my experience is to be patient and wait to commit your heart to someone until you know they are on your level… That person who doesn’t need to be convinced to love you- that person you don’t need to convince yourself to love.

In his beautiful work Love and Responsibility, Saint John Paul the Great speaks to the idea of “Sui Juris” a phrase meaning that man is his own master. No one can want for someone else. No matter how much we may want something, it does not mean someone else will want it too. As a human person, it takes an act of free will to choose anything. Trust me, you WANT someone who freely chooses you. This is the route that leads to security and freedom in a relationship. Wait for your king babygirl. You’ll know who he is when he treats you like a queen.

Above all of this, strive to find peace and joy in being single. Our lives are unpredictable and we never know what is around the next corner. Embrace the freedom of being single and use this time to connect with the people around you in a deep way. Every season of life has blessings and lessons attached to it- don’t be in a rush to skip to the next stage… you may just miss some of those blessings that were meant for you all along.

The person you are deserves to be loved unreservedly. Find this love in God and then be open to finding someone who will strive to love you as God does.

God loves you so much and so do I

1 Corinthians 13

Are you breaking your own heart?

The dating world can be tough to navigate. Scratch that– the dating world IS tough to navigate. There are some lessons which only come through experience while others can be gained through the wisdom of good friends and trusted advisors. In this blog I’d like to share a huge lesson that I have learned through my own life experience and through the stories of friends who have been in similar situations. I will put it simply at first and then go into greater detail later… Are you ready for this?

DO NOT WASTE TIME ON SOMEONE WHO YOU ALREADY KNOW IS BAD FOR YOU.

Did you get that? Did I say it loud enough? Ok good, great, lets dig into this.

I want to start this off by bringing a certain Bible verse to the front of your mind.The book of Proverbs, one of my favorite books in the Old Testament says:

“Above all else, guard your heart,

   for everything you do flows from it”. (Proverbs 4:23)

I want us to consider how every relationship which we let into our lives either produces good fruits or bad fruits. Either we become more fully ourselves because of the love and support of another or we lose sight of who we are in an effort to feed an unhealthy relationship. This goes for any kind of relationship but we are focusing on romantic relationships at this moment.

If we choose to let someone  who does not have our best interest in mind become the object of our affection, we are choosing a painful path for ourselves and depriving the world of the person who we are called to be. I have seen too many people fall victim to this lost sense of self by pursuing someone because they were physically attracted to them even though they knew this someone would most likely not be good for them.

To guard your heart is to treat your future self with respect.

Our world encourages us constantly to live in the moment and ignore the long term implications of our actions. Our world tells us to follow our passions to the bitter end, caring only what pleasure we can get from others– no matter how worthless it may make us or them feel afterward.

Our God tells us that we are worth dying for and that we are worthy of a real, lasting, soul empowering love. Our God shows us the kind of love we deserve by dying for us even though he knew all of our imperfections, sins, and insecurities.

Why would we think that He doesn’t want us to be loved in a similar way by another human being?

You are worthy of a good relationship. The truth is as simple as that. If we are being honest with ourselves, most of the time we can clearly tell the difference between someone who wants to love us and someone who wants to use us.

If you are the person who needs to hear this right now, or read it,  I guess… be kind to your future self. Don’t forget the kind of love God wants to give you. Don’t settle for anything that doesn’t produce good fruit. Guard your heart from people who will take advantage of it.

I’ll be praying for you as you seek to encounter the authentic love that God has in mind for you.

God loves you so much and so do I

1 Corinthians 13

 

Three Short Prayers You should Pray Every Morning

I am definitely a sucker for helpful hints and tips… especially when it comes to fashion, dating, food, and most of all: my spiritual life.

 A couple of years ago, a friend of mine who is now an ordained Catholic Priest, told a group of my friends about some short prayers that he thinks are essential to thriving and fulfilling our callings in life. I have found them endlessly helpful over the years and would like to share them with you all! 

1
) Lord, surprise me today. 

Sometimes I think we can fall into the mentality that God is some stoic, impersonal being who doesn’t care to know our innermost desires. Thankfully, that is not the God whom we worship as Catholics. Our God is active in our lives and wants to give us good gifts. On this topic in the Gospel of Matthew Jesus says,“If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!” (Matthew 7:11). Let God surprise you today! Ask him to show you a little bit about himself through the events of your day. 

2) Lord, please help me to run into anyone I am supposed to see or meet today. 

This one is especially good because not only are we voicing our desire to be Gods heart and hands and feet, it reminds us to be attentive to those people that the Lord places in our path. It can help us to focus our attention on our fellow travelers on this earth and can end in beautiful friendships and relationships growing. 

3) Lord, if there is anyone that I am not supposed to run into today, please keep me from doing so. 

This one is a little deeper and I believe it really strengthens the second prayer. This prayer can keep us out of some nasty situations or conversations that we otherwise may have been drawn into. This way, if we run into someone throughout the day that we don’t particularly like or have good will toward, we know that it is God saying to us: “I want you to run into this person today. Love them like I do.” This can be a challenge but it is always easier to do things when we know that God has placed us there for a reason. 
Prayer is an essential element to every day if we want to be equipped for the throes of this earthly life. I hope these prayers help you like they have helped me. I think these short, humble, simple prayers are very efficacious and will help us all on the paths which we walk toward our eternal Home. 
Keep being Classy Catholics! I am praying with and for you all. 🙂
God loves you so much and so do I. 
1 Corinthians 13

Why You’re Worth More Than a Bikini 

Swimsuit shopping. I shudder a little at the implications brought on by that short, heart wrenching, dessert guilt inducing phrase. It is currently June so if you are a female older than seven years old, you are probably feeling the pressure to pick out that suit that will have you looking your best as you lounge poolside or hit up the beach this summer. I know I have been there quite a few times in my life.Three years ago, I wrote my very first blog on the topic of swimsuit shopping. At the end of that blog, I vowed to ditch my itsy bitsy bikini days in order to help the men around me to see me in a way that was not potentially damaging to their souls… and also to remind myself of what I was worth.

“Worth” is a vague word that I feel is thrown around a lot and most of the time without a clear definition attached to it. I want to explore the word worth in reference to the human person.

So what are you worth? Can a price be assigned to a person?

 Surprisingly… yes. 

When St. Paul is instructing the Corinthians in his first letter to them, he tells them to treat their bodies well and to flee from sexual immorality. Paul tells them “You were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.”

What price can anyone possibly be bought at? And what were we bought from?

The price of buying the human race from the clutches of sin and death was nothing short of the death of Gods own Son, Jesus. 

Each person in existence is worth the blood, agony, physical and mental pain, and ultimately death of Christ. Nothing short of that. When put in this light, I am better able to understand my own choice to wear more modest summertime clothing. 

True modesty is not based in guilt or fear… it is based in knowledge of worth. If I’m being honest, wearing bikinis was something which I had hoped would make me desirable. I reduced my worth by basing it on how attractive or unattractive my body was to those around me. I did not see that by doing this I was selling myself short. I am so much more than just parts of a body to be put on display.

Some may (and do) argue that it is “my body. I can dress however I want.” … And since free will is a legit thing, that is partially true. But, I honestly don’t believe the phrase fully recognizes its own insufficiency to say anything very meaningful. 

This phrase throws off any responsibility toward ones fellow man as it turns the staunch believer of it inward to stew in ones own tendency toward selfishness. It blinds one from realizing the sacrifices that love requires. There is no real love which comes without sacrifice. 

In my case, the choices I made regarding clothing were not expressing love– nor were they welcoming it. I was receiving merely shallow attention and potentially drawing others into sin. This is what I needed to sacrifice in order to express and receive love in a more refined and honest way.

In order to rightly love myself and the people around me, I needed to stop objectifying myself by choosing to wear a modest (but totally cute and fashionable) one piece these past three years, I have felt more empowered, comfortable, beautiful, and downright appreciative of the body that God has given me than ever before. 

This small choice has changed my heart about the way that I dress and has helped me to see very clearly the value of true, heartfelt, modesty. 

When choosing a swimsuit this summer, don’t get sucked into the self objectification which the world has normalized and praised. Do not let yourself be reduced to merely parts. This choice has changed my summertime experience in so many positive ways. I hope that you’ll join me as I continue to discover beauty in modesty this summer. 

You are worth so much more than this world has been offering you. Remember your worth. Live in the continual knowledge of how loved and complex you are. 

I’ll be praying for you as you go head to head with our sexualized society this summer.

God loves you so much and so do I

1 Corinthians 13

3 Realistic Tips for a Happier and Holier 2017

Over the past couple of days I have seen countless posts about 2016 being the worst year ever. While each year undoubtedly comes with its own challenges it is important to remember that there are positive steps which anyone can take to make this next year happier, healthier, and holier in order to increase our peace during turbulent times. This new year I want us all to make a couple of beneficial resolutions. Sure, we may skip out on the gym more than we mean to and we might find ourselves forgetting that we ever made resolutions at all but I wanted to suggest some realistic/holistic ideas for a truly better new year.

 1.    Spend less time on social media.

The best way to deprive ourselves of mental peace is to mindlessly scroll through your news feed. Whether we are comparing ourselves to others, stalking them, or reading every Buzzfeed article we come across, it is rarely ever time well spent. I have never heard anyone say how happy they felt after spending time on social media. Every minute of the day is a minute which either brings us closer to God and to others or doesn’t. Let’s spend less time on social media and more time being social with those near us and God.

 2.    Spend more time outdoors.

Some of the happiest people I know are also some of the most active people I know. God knew what he was doing when he created the beautiful nature which surrounds us. There is something very serene and grounding about being outdoors and feeling the sun on your face. Even in the chill of winter, the cold breeze serves to pull us out of our routines and remind us to be a little more free. If you want to use this year to feel healthier, get outside and detach from technology for at least 15 minutes every day

 3.    Form a daily prayer routine and stick to it.

I heard somewhere that on the weekdays one should pray before 7pm and on the weekend’s one should pray before 1pm. This is a good step towards strengthening our relationship with God and keeping ourselves accountable for our prayer lives. There are many forms of prayer which one can incorporate into any day. Whether it be praying the Rosary on your daily commute, stopping in the chapel for a couple of minutes every day, picking up the practice of doing an examination of conscience daily, or spending time journaling or simply listening to God, make it daily. Set aside a fixed time and let it grow as you go along.

 These are simple goals but I believe they can help our minds, bodies, and souls become stronger, more positive, and holier. Let’s make this New Year one which helps us to be better. Let’s be saints, Lets be adventurous, let’s break our social media habits.

 

I’m saying special prayers for all of you in this New Year.

 

God loves you so much and so do I.

1 Corinthians 13

Discovering True Femininity: Ana and Eileen

 This past semester, I had the opportunity to be in a Focus bible study on the feminine genius. Focus is a “Catholic collegiate outreach whose mission is to share the hope and joy off the gospel to college students”. My two bible study leaders were incredible and really helped me dive into my own self discovery of the feminine genius through not only the bible study, but also my own prayer life.

We started our study in Genesis, focusing on the beautiful complementarity between man and woman. Here in the first book of the Bible, God lays out His plan for men and women so beautifully it says “…he took one of his ribs and closed the flesh up again forthwith….This one at last is bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh!” -Genesis 2. Eve was not taken from Adam’s head to rule over him, nor was she taken from his feet to be ruled by him, but she was taken from his rib, to rule with him. Together they find joy, together they become the person that God created them to be. This major theme from the bible study left me completely stunned. This one story I had heard so many times had so many truths and I wasn’t even aware of them! This plan that God has for humanity so drastically differs from the plan the world lays out for us.

Later that semester I entered into discipleship with my bible study leader, Sara. Being a disciple means that Sara accompanies me as I pursue a life of virtue and evangelization. We meet once a week and the goal is for me to eventually have my own bible study and invite one of the girls in my bible study into discipleship with me.

Sara truly became a friend to me during our time spent together this past semester. Her feminine gift of receptivity is unlike any other, and seeing that in her has inspired me to focus on my own receptivity. When she first asked me to be her disciple I was shocked because I am a relatively shy and reserved person. I was so shocked that she felt called to enter into this journey with me. I thought, why me? Why not someone else? Her choosing to invest in me as a disciple meant so much more than she could ever know.

This invitation made me realize that I don’t have to be like everyone else, and that it’s ok that I am more quiet and shy, because that is the way that the Lord created me. Sara really did bring out the best in me, and helped me to see the feminine gifts that God has given me. Sara saw in me the ability to be a great disciple and leader, but ultimately, God saw it first. She became a vessel for God’s grace, healing, and confidence.

-Ana

This past semester I applied to be on the Women’s ministry team at my university. Women’s ministry is a group of about 12 girls who serve the women of campus and put on events for them. While filling out the questions on the application I was challenged to reflect on my view of femininity. One question in particular asked, “Summarize how you view Catholic womanhood to be different than models proposed by secular feminism.” My view on Catholic womanhood is living out the vocation that was created by God specifically for women. This womanhood involves understanding the unique gifts and talents God bestows on us as females. Being able to find our identity in God is a large part of how I view Catholic womanhood. This differs from the models proposed by secular feminism, which calls for identity in independence, self-gratification, and equality to men. I want to focus specifically on finding our identity in God. It is God who created us and God who knows us so well. The more we discover God, the more we discover ourselves.

After becoming friends with a Sister of St. Francis of Perpetual Adoration, Sister Ignatia, I found the meaning of authentic femininity. It absolutely amazed me that this religious sister was so confident in her identity and was so able to be both a woman and spiritual mother to so many people on campus. A large part of my view of womanhood involved eventually getting married and sharing in a life with someone who complimented me. Sister is not married to another person and yet she still finds her identity in her Spouse, Jesus.  Sister Ignatia shows me womanhood in such a different way than anyone else. She is a bride of Christ and she finds her beauty in that. I see such authentic femininity in her life with the beauty and JOY of her personality. Sister Ignatia shows me that womanhood does not necessarily have to include marriage and a family, it can be lived out in our everyday life as a member of the church.

-Eileen

 

Jesus wants us to find ourselves in Him. He wants to reveal to us our authentic femininity. He wants us to bring our gifts and talents to His church while guiding us along the way. How do you view Catholic femininity? Have you allowed Jesus to show you who and whose you are

Hi! My name is Ana and I am a college student at Texas A&M University. I’m so excited to be starting this blog. I’ve always had the idea in the back of my head to create a place where I can share my thoughts about the faith and about life in general, but I never really felt like I would be able to do it. A couple weeks ago I ran across an article from Verily Magazine (if you don’t know who they are, you should really check them out!) about how to keep in touch with long distance friends. One of the ideas was to start a blog with your best friend, and I literally almost died when I saw that! WHY HAD I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT?! So here I am now, with my best friend, ready to spread seeds of JOY!
Hey guys! My name is Eileen and I am a college student at Franciscan University. Unlike Ana, the thought of starting a blog had never crossed my mind. When she told me about the idea and what we would be writing about I thought to myself, “Whoa, that really scares me!” But then I thought about the quote from my all time favorite saints (and my confirmation saint!), John Paul II, “Do not be afraid to be Saints!” What did I need to be afraid of? I get to write about the blessings and many joys Jesus gives me daily! What could be better than that?! So here I am now, with my best friend, ready to spread seeds of JOY!

St. Therese of Lisieux, pray for us. St. John Paul the Great, pray for us. St. Faustina, pray for us. St. Augustine, pray for us. All you holy men and women, pray for us!

Katie’s Testimony

God created us body and soul. This is something that was ingrained in me as a young, homeschooled child who studied the Baltimore Catechism. The essence of the human being is both in the body and in the soul. Even though this was something I “knew”, it has just become something I understood.You see, for almost my entire life, my body served as a stumbling block to my relationship with myself, others, and most importantly, God.

In his first letter to the Corinthians, St. Paul writes: “…do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, which you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you were bought with a price; therefore glorify God in your body.”

I never saw my body as a gift from God, or a temple of the Holy Spirit. I saw it as annoying and stupid and wrong.

I’ve been overweight for as long as I can remember. I’ve had family members make snarky comments about dieting since I was 10, and the librarian at my library used to call me her “cute little chubby girl.”

All of these people who made comments had good intentions, but it became clear to me very quickly that my body wasn’t normal, that it needed fixing, that it wasn’t good.

Then came high school. And I’m sure you know that highschoolers can be merciless. My school had desks in tight rows I could barely fit through. Each time I would try to get to my seat, giggles and whispers surrounded me. I remember hearing words like “fat,” “whale,” “ugly.” It got to the point that I begged my teachers to let me sit in the front row or at the end of a row so I wouldn’t have to deal with the cruel comments.

I felt ugly, and that my body was useless. I swam competitvely, and I remember being so embarrassed of my body that I would stay in my swim suit until I got home while the other girls all changed in the locker room.

It had nothing to do with modesty, and everything to do with how I had come to see my body.

When I was 12, I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and General Anxiety Disorder. I was put on medications to help manage these illnesses, but there were still times when they became so overwhelming, and I turned to outward ways of coping, including cutting. My body image became more and more warped as I began to have scars and abused it in this way.

Through the grace of God, and with the help of medication and therapy, I eventually stopped cutting, but I was still internally wounded for the way I had hurt myself. My body still felt like a burden.

I remember when I first started college, I was terrified that it would be like high school all over again. I was afraid I would be all alone because I was overweight, and people wouldn’t want to be seen with me. However, God didn’t forsake me. He put people in my life who looked beyond my appearance and insecurities, who loved me despite my extra weight.

Last September, I went on a pilgrimage to Philadelphia to attend Pope Francis’ papal mass during his visit to the United States. During an interest meeting, it was revealed that we would end up walking 10-15 miles throughout the day. I remember looking at my friend in complete horror, telling her that I had to drop the trip because I didn’t think I would be able to handle that much. My friend promised that I could, and told me she’d remain with me the entire day, even if we were miles behind the rest of the group.

And I did it. I walked over ten miles and lived. On the bus ride back to campus, I marveled at what my body was capable, despite all it’s ‘quirks’. It had carried me through through 22 years of life, countless miles, heartbreaks, and illnesses, and my heart still beat. I couldn’t walk the next day because of the pain I was in, but it was the first time I earnestly thanked God for my body.

I began to appreciate my body for what it was – a gift. I began to consciously try to treat myself kindly by exercisng and eating healthy, drinking more water, and trying to stay away from any self-criticism or cruelty.

By this July, I was able to make a pilgrimage to World Youth Day in Krakow, Poland. Over the course of my trip, I walked almost eighty miles, doing over ten miles each on two consecutive days. My body did that. God gifted me with a body that was able to do that.

My feelings towards my body aren’t always all sunshiney. I still am very insecure about my weight, and have random insecurities, like wishing my nose and gap between my teeth were smaller, or that my lips were a little bigger. But the truth is that each of these things are a gift from God. These things I’m insecure about allow me to laugh,to cry, to smile, to speak and to walk with my God.

My body isn’t perfect. But it’s mine. And I’m grateful for a body that will carry me where God calls me.

Katie Freddino graduated From Mount St. Mary’s University in May with a major in English and a minor in Theology. She will be working with the Disney College Program in merchandising (basically a Disney princess)… Katie loves long walks on the beach and all varieties of margaritas. She believes tea and a good book can solve almost any problem and heart to hearts are her jam. Katie wants to change the world by writing. Her blog can be found at: cloudywithachanceofcatholic.blogspot.com

Becca’s Testimony

I’d like to talk to you about patience, which is hard for me, because I’m probably THE most impatient person on the face of the planet. I’d also like to talk to you about love… with a little bit of Jesus.

I’m that girl. I’m the hopeless romantic. I’m the Taylor Swift-loving, Nicholas Sparks-reading, Hallmark commercial-crying girl. And it’s hard. It’s really hard. Because as I loved, I lost the most important man in my life (Jesus, obviously).

The thing was… the love I was looking for wasn’t love at all. It wasn’t sacrificial, it wasn’t pure, it wasn’t what was going to last forever. I trusted too many people and I let too many guys hold my heart. I fell over and over and over again and I didn’t understand what I was doing wrong and why I couldn’t keep these guys in my life. I didn’t know why I wasn’t worth it. Why wouldn’t they stay with me? What was I doing wrong? Why was I pushing people away without knowing what I was doing?

And then in October of 2013, I met him. I fell hard. For the first time in my life, I found someone different. And I actually mean it. He was different. He still is. He always will be.

But there was a problem. You see, I had trained myself to only see my own thoughts. I had forced myself to reconcile with the fact that I wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t pretty enough or smart enough. I didn’t have the right body or the right clothes. I definitely didn’t have the right personality. He’d never want me. So I ruined it. I ran away.

I let the one man who I really, truly ever wanted with a pure love walk away from me. I made a mistake, and I had to live with the consequences.

Here’s the thing. I’m supposed to be talking about Jesus here, right? During this time, he didn’t exist to me. I went to church and I “prayed” on Sundays. But I didn’t know him. I was trying to love and give myself away when I didn’t even have myself to give. I didn’t know myself, because I didn’t let myself know Christ.

Ladies, tell me if you can relate. “I’m not Catholic enough. I know I’ll just sin again, what’s the point of confession? What I’ve done is too terrible for Jesus to forgive. He can’t love me.” That was me, over and over again. I didn’t see the point of trying to make Jesus love me because I’d convinced myself I didn’t need anyone’s love.

So back to the story… here I was lost and heartbroken. Sure, I had some cool friends and a great family. But I knew I had messed up. Just to put this into perspective… I had already spent two months pursuing this boy. And then I just gave up. I had spent two months of my freshman year wanting a boy who wanted me back and then I told myself I didn’t deserve him. I. Was. An. Idiot.

I had a friend at the time who I often accompanied to the Grotto. For me, it was more of a social thing than a prayer thing, but I still went. I sat there silently. I tried to pray sometimes, but it never really worked. One day, she shared a prayer with me that I will remember forever.

 

St. Anthony of Padua’s Be Satisfied With Me:

 

“Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,

To have a deep soul relationship with another,

To be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But to a Christian, God says, “No, not until you are satisfied,

Fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone,

With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me.

With having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone.

Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,

Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship,

That I have planned for you.

You will never be united to another

Until you are united with Me.

Exclusive of anyone or anything else.

Exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, to stop wishing, and allow Me to give you

The most thrilling plan existing . . . one you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the best. Please allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.

Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am.

Keep listening and learning the things that I tell you.

Just wait, that’s all. Don’t be anxious, don’t worry

Don’t look around at things others have gotten

Or that I have given them

Don’t look around at the things you think you want,

Just keep looking off and away up to Me,

Or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a love

Far more wonderful than you could dream of.

You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready,

I am working even at this moment

To have both of you ready at the same time.

Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me

And the life I prepared for you,

You won’t be able to experience the love that exemplified your relationship with Me.

And this is perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love,

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me.

And to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty,

perfection and love that I offer you with Myself.

Know that I love you utterly. I AM God.

Believe it and be satisfied.”

 

This prayer changed my life. For the first time, I understood. I wasn’t finding a guy because I wasn’t finding Jesus.

Remember when I said I wanted to talk about patience? This was it. It took a month (on top of the two I’d already spent wanting him). While this might not seem like long, it was forever. I prayed that prayer every single day for a month. I prayed to St. Anthony every single day for a month. I begged him to bring that man back into my life. I begged him for love and happiness and promised to pursue Jesus at the same time.

It took a month for Anthony to answer me. Since then, it’s been over 2 and a half years. Funny, isn’t it? The man of my dreams shares the name with the saint I spoke to for what seemed like forever.

Because of this prayer, I know I have a relationship that will last. I pursued Jesus instead of pursuing a boy. I focused on Jesus instead of focusing on a boy. When I had finally made the decision that I didn’t need him anymore, God put him right back in my life. Patience works. God knows your heart, and only God knows when you are actually ready.

I’ve come a long way in my faith life since then, and so has Anthony. Jesus forced me to be patient, showing me that the best things really do come to those who wait. He showed me that He will never give you step 2 before you’ve completed step 1, and as annoying as that can be sometimes, it all makes sense at the end.

Jesus isn’t just someone who I talk about in Theology anymore. I have an actual prayer life. I say the rosary more often now than I ever have. Now, I’m not saying that I found Jesus because I found a boy (quite the opposite, actually). I’ve gone through a million other trials since then. My point is simple: Don’t make your own plans. Make your soul, and your soul will find the way.

Love is patient, remember? (1 Cor. 13). While I became patient in finding love, Jesus was patient in waiting for me to find Him. He didn’t rush me; he didn’t give me an ultimatum. He let me make a few mistakes until I finally begged Him for mercy, and oh boy did mercy come. I will forever be grateful to Jesus and St. Anthony.

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Becca is a rising senior at Mount St. Mary’s University. She is heading to law school in the fall. Becca loves coffee and mountains and one day she is going to change the world.